I feel like I’m pretending to know what I’m doing when I’ve no clue. This is a real bummer because I have to test myself on how capable I am when it comes to handling newer responsibilities and assuming roles. This is harder for me not because I’ve been put into a new environment but it’s because I didn’t expect the task to be huge.

I have to get my act straight – work, work!

Yes it is, I’ve got so many things in my mind to think about and now I have to understand how to create a viable press release. It’s nice to learn new things but I like it more if I have a guide to teach me rather than me searching for information online. Oh well, I just have to understand how it is to create one. It’s time to turn on the brain.

so what’s new? Nothing, really.

I sound pathetic that I’m supposed to enjoy my vacation but I’m actually getting more comfortable with the daily grind. But I have to make a decision… again.

The end is near, the beginning will follow.

It’s sad that I don’t get to follow my alarm clocks anymore. I set up the timer in order to wake up early but because of the snooze button, my discipline has dwindled. I keep on pressing the snooze until I can just wake up at my own time since I don’t pressure myself to get up anymore.

Knowing that I have more than one job and even more debts to handle, I need to take things seriously and really just get out of the sack at the first alarm. Maybe it’s the choice of song but still, I can only wait until something bad happens to one of my jobs — which is something I’m avoiding. Curse the snooze!

Keywords are running through my head. I’ve been copying and pasting information and repeating the same keywords to post. This is giving me a headache due to the number of entries that I need to publish and everything should’ve been automated already. I’ve been a regular at a cafe but what the heck, so long as I’m paying and I’m ordering I’m sure they won’t mind the hassle.

Been busy with Sunday commitments for photography sessions. I’m getting busier and busier by the day and I don’t seem to have that much rest anymore. But I’m enjoying the fact that I’m much more in tune with the hectic schedule. Balancing work and other sidelines is getting more of a routine than a hassle these days.

Anyway, I’ll be joining organizations in the company and help out in their activities by documenting the events that are happening. In line with this, it seems hard to give up the current workload.

No time update and I’m swamped with work already. My mind is going back and forth and the words are just circling around. I can’t go any level deeper nor can i come up with something better. It’s all just a whirl that I can’t tell when it will stop.

Sigh. It’s one of ‘em days where I’m pressed and I’m stuck.

darn it. Just when I thought everything was going well according to plan, something comes up which totally ruins everything.

It isn’t really the best of time for this to happen. I have to wait for the pressure to subside before I can even start. I’m wishing that everything will pan out. In any case, I should still continue the plan.

So I can at least serve more than one master. Though I have so many things to do, I can give more attention to this other job which is going to be my main one. I hope that everything turns out right and that I won’t have to bother pressuring myself.

I don’t want to squeal because I might jinx it. I will be multitasking and be an all-around working class citizen — well, not really.

I’ve already made one and I’m just waiting for the right time. Question is “When is the right time?” A lot of people might think I’ll be letting go of something big and I believe so too. But I need growth and I need change; I still wish to put myself into the confines of the company but I’m afraid opportunities for the path I want to make are scarce. Either that or I’m not looking hard enough.

I’m actually thinking about the benefits that this new chance brings. I’ll be missing out and missing a lot; but I strongly believe I can get by. Decisions are hard, especially when they’re big ones.